Hi sweetheart,  I miss you so much Joshua.  A year has past and still not real to me.  As you know, Auntie Linda is with you guys and please take care of her. She was in so much pain in the end and I hope she is now pain free.  Devon and Gracie are doing great.  Devon is finally playing ball Josh and playing outfield, like his Dad.  Gracie is moving down here this summer.  So strange not seeing her every day.  Treasure is coming with the girls, deep down, she really loved you Josh and I believe you two would have gotten back together, friendship like that never dies.  She has alot of regrets, but it is what it is, nobody knew her better than you.  We have gotten close again and its nice.  Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind, I keep reliving that morning that we found you, what went wrong, how did this happen, I know you are at peace but there was so much more for you to do.  Devon still will not talk about that morning, I am trying to do my best with him Josh, he is a mini you.  He is growing up so fast and I love him madly.  Our little girl is missing her Daddy, she gets very emotional talking about you, in the short time you had with her, they are precious moments she will never forget.  Two beautiful babies...I love you babe, you are my heart