Hey sweetie, another christmas without you, this is the 2nd, we miss you so much Josh, the kids are doing very good, but missing you like crazy.  Hope you got the balloons we sent up to you and auntie linda.  Devon left today to go stay with Harmony for school vacation.  this is the first time he has been away from me.  He is so much like you Josh, its unreal.  Gracie, well she is Gracie, you would be amazed at her, so beautiful, loves people, singing, dancing, where Devon is like you,quiet and shy.  Funny those two.  Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind, I always think of the what if's.  Still cant believe you are gone, it will never be real to me.  I love you, forever and a day.  Mama